On Saturday I went into Vancouver and we finally watched it together. R. taped the last four episodes and we watched them all at once. We had chocolate, tea, snacks, chocolate....it was The. Best.
On my way home I took transit to get to the ferry. As I was sitting on the first Skytrain I started to look around and realized how many people were clamoring around. Everywhere.
Then I remembered what my bestie said when she moved away from Vancouver in March*. "There are too many people with too many intentions. I have to get outta here." At the time I didn't understand what she meant but now I do: everyone is climbing all over each other to get around, to get by, everyone is going in different directions all at once.
After these totally foreign (to me) thoughts started going through my head I started to freak out a little bit. You guys know how I feel about Vancouver....
I wanted to distract myself so I decided to put my ipod on. It was on full blast and I. couldn't. hear. it. I realized that my 'full blast' in Victoria is a lot different than my 'full blast' used to be in Vancouver. I used to be part of that crowd, blend in, flow with it. Now I feel like I stick out, like I don't belong.I freaked out some more.
Then I realized that I can't imagine commuting to work like this anymore. I like my short walk to work where I listen to La Boheme and think about going to the opera in Rome**. I like the little 5000 square foot office I work at. I like my 12 workmates, rather than the 150 workmates I had in Vancouver. I like the slow pace of Victoria.
All of this is now okay with me.
The next thought that quickly flashed through my mind.....so brief I wasn't even sure I had it:
"I don't think I want to live in Vancouver anymore."
Gasp!
Then this image:
I started to get super emotional. Then I realized that I couldn't wait to get back home to Victoria.Saturday April 9, 2011 - I finally had my breakthrough about Vancouver. It only took 2 1/2 years.
*more on this later, I have some catching up to do
** yes, I do this every morning
4 comments:
I think that if I left Toronto, it would take me some time to get over it too. I love this city 90% of the time, but sometimes I could totally go for some place quieter and slower.
I really liked Victoria when I went there in the summer of 2007. My friend and I went to a pub called the Sticky Wicket for drinks just 'cuz the name made us laugh.
I love breakthroughs though. :)
Aw, sniff-- I'm so PROUD of you! (Not like I have any claim on this little city of ours whatsoever. I just like to hear that you're finally able to consider it home! Warms. My. Heart.)
As someone who moves a ton, I'm so happy you've had the this-is-my-home now feeling!
I know what you mean...We lived in Vancouver for 5 years and I loved it...but when we moved to Burnaby recently I realized I much prefer a slower pace and the peace and quiet. When I take the skytrain to go downtown now (on the rare occasion), I feel the same way - there's just too much going on and everyone's in such a hurry! I thought I'd miss living in Van SO MUCH but as it turns out, not so much!!
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